There has been very little mention of the whole dating thing with Boy, except that he said he was "trying to love me". I had told him I was broken, and he responded by being exceptionally wonderful. At which point I, of course, got prickly and unfair when he complimented me. and he said, "I am just trying to love you." But it was similar to last time in that he sorta just said it as he was walking out of the room and I was drifting off into tear-streaked sleep. (Well, the last incident was laughter, this one was tears. Sue me.) So I got up and asked, "What did you just say?!" It was kinda surreal. I feel like I'm in a movie. I told him I did love him. He said he loved me, too. And then added, "more than you know."
So the question is: Is it foolish for a broken girl to hook up with broken-for-now Boy? Even if he's broken for a reason and for awhile, as opposed to my being broken forever and just because I'm me? Can a sometime-broken guy break me further, or would I be in danger of pushing him closer to broken-for-good?
On a lighter note, should I start playing pool again?
About Me
- SamSam
- I am so content to live every small joy like it shatters the world. The original cowboy killer. Gin Martinis at a really tall bar. The way new lipstick glides across soft lips. Rubbing down with baby oil after a shower and walking around for a day smelling and feelling like infant. Sunshine, shade and shades. making a tiny amount of money, but calling myself a designer...Gin Martinis, twice over. Dirty.
1 comment:
indeed. re-breaking is a very real possibility. but i would rather be broken again and again, in the hopes of finding happiness. besides, the more broken you are, the more you appreciate the love when you find it. or maybe these are the silly reasons i dated someone for four years who was emotionally abusive.
your call.
girls who play pool are hot.
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