Bad Day(s)

I'm not a good girlfriend, so I'm relinquishing the title. I am just going to try and be a good friend for a while. I never really have been before, and maybe that's the key to being a good girlfriend, really. I've really been hating this the past few days...

Anyway, the news is that I haven't had sex with Jake for almost a week. In fact, I haven't even made out with Jake for almost a week. And the past few days I've been dying for it. And the worst thing is that I could have had it. I ran into two guys last night who I know wanted to have sex with me, and I was approached by three other men to start converstaions. I was like little miss popularity.

And I thought, "I don't want to be alone tonight."

And I saw, "I don't have to be alone tonight."

And I realized, "I don't just not want to be alone; I don't just want to be with someone. I want to be with someone specific."

And then I felt more alone than before.

And then I sat and talked with Ryan about sext messaging and talked to Lawrence about the scifi movie he wants to make, and really, all those feelings passed.

The point is, it's hard not to be a whore.